Still, going from fully in love to 100 percent over isn't an easy switch no matter the circumstances, harder still when the whole world is weighing in."It was a weird, confusing space to be in, because as angry as I was, as angry and hurt and betrayed, I just felt like he made that mistake because he needed help," Rihanna told Oprah Winfrey on a 2012 edition of OWN's . Nobody's gonna say he needs help."Because despite his inexcusable actions, Brown was still her best friend, someone she cared deeply about and she knew that few people were in his corner.At one point, according to the police report, he even threatened to kill her. "I felt like a f--king monster."His fall felt as sudden as it was sharp, but their relationship had actually been on the decline for some time. From there, it just went downhill because there were too many verbal fights, physical fights as well.
Everything I was saying was from my heart, but it was kind of controlled.
'Well, don't say it like this, because it will look like that...' I'm going to get public scrutiny or criticism regardless of what I say. I just wanted to let people know how I felt at the end of the day."Though he made clear he realized just how indefensible his actions were, he noted their youth and relative relationship inexperience were a factor.
I'm not ever trying to put my hands on any female."The issue, as Rihanna would later put it in a November 2009 interview with Diane Sawyer was that their connection went beyond basic infatuation and affection. Though the "Run It" singer said he had no idea she would be there, Rihanna was still upset when she approached them at the bash. She started drinking a little bit, we both was drinking a little bit. I was swollen in my face."Unable to drive herself, and years away from the advent of Uber, "There was no way of me getting home," she continued. That whole night wasn't part of my plan." Eventually, he pulled over, causing Rihanna to grab the keys and pretend to throw them out the window.
"The ceremony's about to start, she's just crying," Brown recalled. We were both drinking a little bit, laughing, joking. "Except for my next option was to get out of the car and walk, start walking in a gown and a bloody face. As Brown went scrambling to locate them, "She yells out her door, 'Help, he's trying to kill me.'"Her screams caught the attention of a neighbor who dialed 911, mercifully bringing the horrific episode to a halt.
"Everybody's gonna say he's a monster without looking at the source.
And I was more concerned about him," she told Winfrey.
Having been discovered in her native Barbados when two American record producers were vacationing there in 2004, Rihanna had a succession of quick hits with her 2005 dancehall-inspired tune "Pon de Replay," and "SOS" off her 2006 follow-up disc The pair continued to spend the next year labeling their relationship as platonic—"We are best friends, honestly, like brother and sister," she told MTV—until their outings to London clubs and vacation to Barbados made it impossible to continue to deny the obvious.
"Our relationship is growing," Brown admitted during an interview with the Russ Parr Morning Show.
"We started off as friends and we're getting a little bit closer now."The crowned prince and princess of R&B, 19-year-old Brown and his 20-year-old girlfriend were one of the most adorable young couples in all of music.